Collin is going through a phase where he wants nothing to do with anyone but me. He will go to Shane if I am around, but if I leave, he tends to have a breakdown. He won't even take the breast milk I leave. All of the sudden I can't go to the gym (screams in the child center) and girls night out is becoming a thing of the past. I am starting to feel a bit trapped. It doesn't help that Collin's sleep habits seem to be regressing and I am averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night. I am so tired, it literally hurts.
Last night I nursed Collin, thinking of the piles of laundry to fold and dishes waiting to be washed. I had been so stressed the entire day and I'm not sure I had even brushed my teeth. Dreading the work that was still ahead of me, I looked down at Collin, who had pulled away from my breast. His eyes searched mine and I could see his perfect adoration. We watched each other while the rest of the world fell away.
What I keep on telling myself is that this is a very short time of my life. Freedom will come again. Sleep will come again. For now, I am trying to enjoy being the most important person in the world to this precious little child. It is an incredible gift to be so completely and utterly loved.
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SO sweet Natalie! I love this post, and you guys look so amazing, as well!
This is so true. Take if from a mommy of two boys when I say there is nothing like the love that a little boy feels for his mommy. I, too see that look of complete adoration from them and I try to cherish every single one of them. Great photo!
I understand. Henry all of a sudden at 8 mos is waking again in the middle of the night. I grumble all the way to fix a bottle, but as soon as I hold him in my arms and look at each others eyes the world stands still. Hold on to every moment!
I love the picture!!
Thanks for the nice comment! I hate running too and have never done any running or very much exercise, but my sister in law is doing one and invited me. I figured what the heck, plus it is a good way to show myself I CAN do it. Thanks for letting the boys spy, I appreciate what Brady learned;)
I can understand how tired you feel! Motherhood is a sacrifice! I'm glad you are taking the time to enjoy the little moments now. I feel kids are an investment. You don't see the return right away, but the earlier and the more you invest, the better off you are later. He looks so sweet.
♥ He's adorable!!!
Once again - I so relate! Thanks for your wonderful posts. Your guy is such a doll.
I just did a post on my blog which includes some links to yours :). Thanks for introducing/sharing so many fun things and products on your blog. I love it.
It's so true! Why does 3-4 months seem like an eternity, when in actuality it's really just a blink in the eternal scheme of things? I think sleep deprivation really can make 4 months seem like eons. :) Hug that baby and keep reminding yourself that he'll be running away from you soon enough - and then rock him some more.
I am going through the same thing with my little gumdrop, Naomi, she's almost 7 months..She always the happiest in my arms...which makes me feel great and loved except when I need to get things done around the house. I think everyone is right, we should be enjoying it while we can.
I read your blog daily..first time to comment...keep it up..
p.s. I made Shane's challah french toast and it was a hit...tell him thanks!!
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