Sunday, August 25, 2013


I had my c-section 11 days ago. It was not a good experience. I actually wrote a terrifically long post detailing all the little details of all that happened during my time at the hospital.

But it was just too much for me to put it all out there. So in a summery:

My surgery ended up taking a very long time due to excessive bleeding. My spinal started to wear off and I started to feel what was happening. I was almost put under, but they ended just in time. It was terrifying, and Shane was not able to stay with me past the point of the baby being born.

There is a bleed still occurring deep within my incision. My doctor had to open a hole and twice a day my mom packs it with gauze to help with the healing.

I'm in a lot of pain, and the thought of a open wound scares me to no end.

After my first catheter in the hospital, I lost the sensation of when I need to pee. This probably was caused by my spinal. A second catheter was placed to remove urine that I couldn't get out on my own.

This caused a UTI, which I still am getting over.

I still do not have the sensation to pee and have to remember to go. But actually peeing is very painful.

For some reason, I have lost much of my use of my right hand. This might have been due to the 9 times I was stuck when trying to place an IV. Currently I cannot write, cut my food, or anything that I need that type of hold. Diapering and dressing a newborn is especially hard. If you haven't received a thank you card from me, it's because my dominate hand does not work.

Typing is very slow.

On top of this, I just had a baby.

I'm tired.
My boobs are killing me.
I'm crying a lot.

But I have been so looked out for. Friends have offered food and babysitting. My kids work hard to play and occupy themselves without mommy. My husband is such a blessing to me and brings chocolate and cuddles. My mom has stayed to take on the job of nurse to me and babysitter to my other two children. I don't know what I would have done without her.

Most importantly,

I'm so in love with my baby girl.

So happy that I have a Heavenly Father who knew I would go through so much, and sent me a sweet, mild healthy baby who is such a comfort to me. She hardly ever cries. She sleeps at night until I wake her to eat. I hold her close, breath her in and think over and over again. Worth it.

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Not blogging a lot right now since I can't use my right hand very well. 
I'm better on my phone. 
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Meghan said...

I am so sorry you have had such a rough go out it. I will keep you in my prayers.
Your new baby girl is beautiful!

April said...

I have never commented before, but I HAVE to tell you that I had similar hand pain/numbness/discomfort after an ill-placed IV during my second c-section. (It was so uncomfortable - while in - I repeatedly begged them to take it out!) But my hand DID eventually return to normal. It took a while (weeks!) and boy was I scared about it the whole time, but in the end, it became another "birth memory." Good luck with your recovery. In just a few years you'll be able to tell Elise everything you went through for her! ;)

Joy@WDDCH said...

There is an end in sight for all the pain and anguish - hang in there momma!!!

And she is just a little doll. Oh I wish I could give her a few snuggles. How precious!!! And her name fits her to a T, seriously. She just looks like a sweet little Elise. I'm so glad she is a mild-tempered baby during such a difficult recovery. My second-born daughter also slept through the night and NEVER cried (I can count on one hand how many times she cried and it was never long). My other four? Yeah, they needed lots and lots of extra mommy snuggles and lots of night wakings, LOL! But so worth it.

Anyway just had to say that I just went through postpartum and I know how hard these days are emotionally. There is a light at the end of that tunnel. I'm so glad you have a great support system to help carry you through it!

dristy said...

Hi and congrats! I'm little late on congratulating you coz I also had my c-secthis 13th (totally unplanned, no medical emergency, only because i had a false pain and i got scared!)

All the best for you and your baby girl, she's soooooooooooooooooo adorable!

Sarah said...

Praying you'll recover quickly!!! Elise looks so much Lydia in that picture!

RealHouseWifeOfNOVA said...

Oh my gosh, praying for you. I can't imagine how hard it must be to want to do everything and not be able to do such simple things we take for granted. Congrats on your beautiful baby girl!

Cari said...

So sorry you've had such an awful experience! I hope you recover soon! Your daughter is so beautiful and love the name!

Kathleen W. said...

I'm so sorry that you're having so much trouble. I can't imagine how hard it is dealing with your pain as well as all the usual challenging stuff that a newborn comes with. I've been thinking about you and praying that your recovery is quick and complete.

PS Elise is absolutely adorable! She looks so much like her siblings.

Jessie Jones said...

Thinking of you as you continue to recover! What a precious baby girl you have though!

Cheryl said...

I am so sorry you are going through this.
My last c section was terrible but not this bad. Man, it is such a hard thing.
The guy doing my spinal broke the needle off in my back and when I turned around to see what he was doing there was blood everywhere. But he finally got it in and told me to tell him if I had any trouble breathing. I was terrified the whole time because of that and wasn't able to focus on the baby the way I had with my first.
I can't even imagine being able to feel that. That is so awful.
She is so beautiful. I am so glad she has been easy for you. Let yourself relax and rest during this time.
You deserve it!

My Name is JACY said...

Oh Natalie! I am so terribly sorry to hear this.... But yes, that sweet baby Elise is so beautiful and so worth it! I am sending you all the love and wishes for a speedy recovery that I have.

Hang in there!!

Big HUGE hugs!!!

amydear said...

Ugh. Sorry for the rough go of it. Glad you are home and doing better. So glad your mom is there to help! She's pretty amazing, as I recall. Take it easy!

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