Collin is going through a phase where he wants nothing to do with anyone but me. He will go to Shane if I am around, but if I leave, he tends to have a breakdown. He won't even take the breast milk I leave. All of the sudden I can't go to the gym (screams in the child center) and girls night out is becoming a thing of the past. I am starting to feel a bit trapped. It doesn't help that Collin's sleep habits seem to be regressing and I am averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night. I am so tired, it literally hurts.
Last night I nursed Collin, thinking of the piles of laundry to fold and dishes waiting to be washed. I had been so stressed the entire day and I'm not sure I had even brushed my teeth. Dreading the work that was still ahead of me, I looked down at Collin, who had pulled away from my breast. His eyes searched mine and I could see his perfect adoration. We watched each other while the rest of the world fell away.
What I keep on telling myself is that this is a very short time of my life. Freedom will come again. Sleep will come again. For now, I am trying to enjoy being the most important person in the world to this precious little child. It is an incredible gift to be so completely and utterly loved.
SO sweet Natalie! I love this post, and you guys look so amazing, as well!
ReplyDeleteThis is so true. Take if from a mommy of two boys when I say there is nothing like the love that a little boy feels for his mommy. I, too see that look of complete adoration from them and I try to cherish every single one of them. Great photo!
ReplyDeleteI understand. Henry all of a sudden at 8 mos is waking again in the middle of the night. I grumble all the way to fix a bottle, but as soon as I hold him in my arms and look at each others eyes the world stands still. Hold on to every moment!
ReplyDeleteI love the picture!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the nice comment! I hate running too and have never done any running or very much exercise, but my sister in law is doing one and invited me. I figured what the heck, plus it is a good way to show myself I CAN do it. Thanks for letting the boys spy, I appreciate what Brady learned;)
ReplyDeleteI can understand how tired you feel! Motherhood is a sacrifice! I'm glad you are taking the time to enjoy the little moments now. I feel kids are an investment. You don't see the return right away, but the earlier and the more you invest, the better off you are later. He looks so sweet.
ReplyDelete♥ He's adorable!!!
ReplyDeleteOnce again - I so relate! Thanks for your wonderful posts. Your guy is such a doll.
ReplyDeleteI just did a post on my blog which includes some links to yours :). Thanks for introducing/sharing so many fun things and products on your blog. I love it.
It's so true! Why does 3-4 months seem like an eternity, when in actuality it's really just a blink in the eternal scheme of things? I think sleep deprivation really can make 4 months seem like eons. :) Hug that baby and keep reminding yourself that he'll be running away from you soon enough - and then rock him some more.
ReplyDeleteI am going through the same thing with my little gumdrop, Naomi, she's almost 7 months..She always the happiest in my arms...which makes me feel great and loved except when I need to get things done around the house. I think everyone is right, we should be enjoying it while we can.
ReplyDeleteI read your blog daily..first time to comment...keep it up..
p.s. I made Shane's challah french toast and it was a hit...tell him thanks!!